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[key_illusion]

[All you can hear is the sound of static.]

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[lethechained]

That's true. It had to happen the way that it did. [Too true.]




I guess

I just wish that you had never had to go through that or suffer that hurt yourself.

[She also wishes she could listen to him, could stop being so sorry and appease him that way, but....]

I'm sorry. I shouldn't be complaining.

[key_illusion]

Don't say that.

Don't be sorry.

You're hurting too, aren't you?

[lethechained]

[It hurts. It hurts, knowing what she's done, to everyone and to him. She created him to live this life, to suffer like this, and it hurts--]



I'm okay.

[She can't hurt, not the way the others do.]

I'll try not to be. [Sorry, she means, and only for his sake.]

[key_illusion]

No, I don't think you are.

[lethechained]

[....]

[If he could see her, he'd see a forced smile.]

I can't not be. Not the way the others can.

[key_illusion]

No.

I think you're hurt.

Because how could you create me? How could you handle other people's hurt without being hurt as well?

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[lethechained]

I've seen their memories. I've seen how much they've suffered.

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[key_illusion]

Sora will do something very similar once I'm done judging him, correct?

But I had to help inflict hurt on him in order for him to handle those memories so he could understand them.

And whose hurt does he have to take on? [Because he's starting to think you're in there as well. Maybe it's just instinct considering he's attached to those hurtful memories as well.]

[lethechained]

[....] He will.

[She sees where he might be going with this. She tells herself the reason she understands is the sheer number of memories she's found her way through.]


It belongs to many people. [And she is, though not for lack of doubting.]

[key_illusion]

Are you included in the mix? [He'll be straight to the point.]

[lethechained]

Yes.

[key_illusion]

[Ah, the truth. How bittersweet.]

Why do you deny it then?

[lethechained]

It can't be the same. I'm not like the others.

You don't have to worry about me.

[key_illusion]

Stop.

Please.

If it hurts, let me help you.

I care about you.

[lethechained]

[


Something in her chest is clenched so tightly that she's not sure it will ever come undone. She's hurting him, isn't she? By denying her own hurt which she can't really have. It's not the same, it's not-- she's causing him more of his own.]

[She finds herself rereading that last part.]


I'll stop.

[She wants to say that she doesn't have a right to be so selfish, to say these things to him, but-- but saying that would be selfish, too.]



I care about you too.

['As much as I can' is forced aside and erased. 'That's why I want you to be safe' suffers the same fate.]

I will.

You've already done it. [If what the Journal said was true, then....]

[key_illusion]

[...The sad thing is that he's not sure if he can trust all these reassurances.

He's not sure what to say next, besides:]

Thank you.

[lethechained]

[Though there might be some things she's keeping to herself... what she did say, at least, is true.]


You're welcome.

You deserve thanks too.

[key_illusion]

[What is he supposed to say to that? What is he supposed to do?

He doesn't like not knowing.]

Okay then.

[lethechained]

[He's not the only one lost. (But fortunately for her, she's used to trying to guide others, even when she's in trouble, too.)]


I mean it. You've done so much.

[key_illusion]

It's no problem.

[It's how things are supposed to work out, right? Even if he is creating hurt in the process...]

[lethechained]

[Speaking of which, guess who'll be tattling on him a few days after this conversation--]

I'll always be grateful.

['No problem' or not.]