Because it would be pointless if you put it against the reasoning that you want to see your home. And like I said before, it's not very sane or smart.

[??? turns back to the other teen briefly to give him a look. He's not judging, either way.]

But it's understandable if you're hurting. But what's the point of seeking out pain for you? Is the important part that it was that dream? A regrettable situation, and you wanted to hurt for it?